Not feeling very reflective.
But, one thing. Let me say that though I've been struggling, I've been getting more and more in touch with the reality that I create each decision. That feels empowering.
I will post more another time, I just wanted to finally break down the mental wall and get back to this blog, if only for a moment, to help remind me of what I want, and what helps me in achieving it.
For now, I'm just trying to keep it simple.
Even the longer periods of slipping, falling, failing, etc, don't change this fact: Picking myself up and getting back on track isn't any different then a kid who crashed into bushes the last time he rode his bike. The next time he wants to ride it, he doesn't dwell on the crash, he just does what works. Pick up bike, climb on, hit the pedals, steer clear of dangers, enjoy the ride.
Tomorrow, I think I'll focus on remembering the following:
"Some people use failure as an excuse to give up - to become bitter, or cynical. Other people look at failure as an opportunity to revisit past decisions and to devise new strategies." -Catherine Pulsifer
Or, more succinctly:
"A failure is a man who has blundered, but is not able to cash in the experience." - Elbert Hubbard